The reason behind your goodbye is insanely unacceptable, personal problems that I must know because I’m part of you. Doubt if that is real, it lead me to long for your voice that undeniably wants to be with me. Doubt that little by little is a termite that will eat my faith in holding to your promise that I am for you and you are for me.

I can’t believe that this is the end of a minute of happiness because it will surely bring me to years of grief and penitence. I’m not prepared of your literally goodbye. Even though for a fact that you never bid your goodbye to me and just left me thinking that we are still together. A goodbye that I think I will never get used to or I will not be prepared because of my intense love for you.

I smile and I kept my mouth shut of every topic that may lead of discussing of what had happen to us or to me because of a failed relationship. Yet, they still bombarded me with questions and sarcastic words that connotes to my stupidity because of you. I want to beg them to leave my heart alone and let me heal by myself. They always say that by now I must already moved on but how can I do that if from time to time they always have a way for me to remember you.

I’m living with my life that I used to when we are not yet together but everything had changed because now I felt the emptiness of a big percentage in my life. My life in not as good as before and I cant bring it back without him but I’m trying of it.

Before I used to believe in happy endings which is in the fairy tale story but because of all the trials and sufferings that brought me because of my love for you I never want to love this way again or should I say that I can’t love another man the same level of submissiveness in you. I just give it a shot when I answered “YES” to you but I don’t have an idea that I will be in great misery because of that 3 letter word. Yes, I am traumatized and I don’t want to enter another relationship when I knew myself that I will do things that caused my pain and I don’t want to burden myself to that..

Goodbyes are not always that bad. It sometimes lead for someone to grow up and find him or herself and be a better person. It doesn’t work all the time because it may cause a chaos in the emotions and physical rebel of a person because of his or her feeling of being unwanted.